Thoughts drown me in their multitude
as they undulate with vigor and range.
I struggle and panic to get release
yet efforts serve futile for I am taken in.
All in my solitude I am consumed.
All in my solitude I am abused.
I want escape and I want it now.
I may be ready for my final bow.
Head above water I grasp for air
not just the ordinary kind will suffice.
I need it unclean, corrupted and damaged
by some expensive strawberry flavored stick.
As I inhale I feel control.
And another one it reaches my soul.
I close my eyes momentarily to gain focus.
I close my eyes to avoid a view of a circus.
Enlightened. Pacified.
It stopped. It settled.
I relaxed. I smiled.
Once more, I survived.
***
This was written with TLC's "Damaged" on loop on my online mp3 player. I heard this song on our way back to Manila from Tagaytay last weekend. Although I haven't heard the song for a long time and this was not exactly the last song I heard but I found myself singing the chorus every now and then ever since.
Camille, this is for you. :)
20 comments:
Minsan isha-share ko ang mga tula ko para sa iyo.
Gandang umaga.
I would love to read some of your poems. :)
Good morning! :)
malupet tumula ang joms lalo pag tagalog.. luv it..
i love ren tlc's damaged.. along with plumb's boys don't cry hahaha plus creep ng radiohead..
Last song syndrome na naging tula. Ganda. :)
parang gusto ko kumain ng maraming chocolate pagkatapos mabasa ito...
@dabo: I can't wait to read his poems.
I like the songs you mentioned. I have a friend who sings "creep" each and every time we go to videoke bars. hehehe
@keitaro hanazawa: Thanks. :)
@waneringcommuter: Chocolates? Do you need mood booster? I hope everything is okay. :)
ouch... somehow [I]nearly the same. dunno why.
love the song damage, speaking of which, ma download nga later
heal my brother, heal
woof!
no scrubs lang naaalala kong kanta ng TLC... pero magaling sila talaga. miss Left Eye... :( she was my fave in the group...
very cool song, damaged.
@dazedblu*: That's hard. When you are nto sure what bugs you, it's hard to address it. Hope everythign is well by now. :)
@bryan anthony the first: Thanks for dropping by. Yup. "I am healed. I am healed". I am consipring with the cosmos for my healing. :)
@roneiluke,rn: Try to listen to it. It's a nice song. They have other songs that are nicer than "no scrubs". :)
nice poem. talented!
@ely: Thanks! :)
well done...
I love chilli crazy sexy cool
have a great day
live well
laugh often
enjoy life
@ice: Thanks! :)
sana makapagsulat ka ng tula tungkol sa "Repair". iyon ang kelangan ko ngayon. kasi damaged ako.
@boying: Will do, sir. One of these days. :)
This kinda tackles recovery with the help of my fave vice. lol
Shucks, your're practically the only guy I know who listens to TLC still just like I do. Fantastic. :)
I love them. :) Aside from nostalgia, listening to songs from the 90s gives me that soothing feeling after a very long stressful day.
Thanks for dropping by. :)
nice nice poem!
@looking for the source: Thanks so much! :)
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