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No expectations. No frustrations. Just light, ready to take flight.

Wednesday, December 24, 2008

Friday, December 19, 2008

The Song

I don't know why but I had this song playing on loop while I was doing all my tasks today. I'm sure the masochist in me enjoyed this thoroughly.

Elephant Love Medley - Moulin Rouge Soundtrack/Moulin Rouge Soundtrack

Thursday, December 18, 2008

OK. Got It!

What happened?
We had a little something.
Not solid but it was something.
Or maybe I was just imagining.

Just like the season,
you became cold.

What happened?
Ah... it was you playing.
I understand and that's okay.
My fault I allowed it.

Oh well, it was nice while it lasted.
At least it happened.

Thanks for the warning.
Though it was a bit too late.
I was caught in the trap.
But I will manage to get out.

It was too good to be true.
It was after all just a game to you.

"How can I convince you, what you see is real.
Who am I to blame you, for doubting what you feel."

The Search is Over, Survivor

Thursday, December 4, 2008


There you are.
Beautifully laying right in front of me.
Appealing, tempting with the dark exterior.
Never humble and meek,
you ostentatiously rest with your assets
for my further enjoyment.

I slowly move closer unconsciously.
With every inch I draw near I absorb flashes of guilt.
Yet I still fancy the idea to be close… closer.
You lure me in to appreciate you up close.
Mindful about my obvious desire,
you use and abuse it for your selfish reasons.

I succumb and break down my defenses.
I find myself gently reaching out to you.
With my middle finger I touch your warm exterior.
I steadily glide my finger across you.
As if on a spell I guide my middle finger to my mouth
and savor the sweetness of your sweet skin

Internally I am struggling real hard.
I want to take in more of you but I know I should not.
I want to retreat but I know I have gone too far.
My lips tremble subtly with excitement to touch you.
My tongue anticipates the taste of something delightfully pleasant.
I bite my lower lip lightly to convince me this is not a dream.

I move closer now to smell your addictive scent.
With eyes closing, in one big breath I indulge.
Unhurriedly I open my eyes to see you remain magnificent.
I am ready and there is no need to overanalyze.
I am weak and I am willing to take a bite.
Who can resist a taste of a scrumptious molten milk chocolate cake?

Inspired by my dessert when I had lunch at Pepper Lunch last Sunday in Rockwell.

Tuesday, December 2, 2008

Not Healthy

Yet again I was tempted to smoke last weekend. I really should stop staying in places that will cause me to inhale second hand smoke as this will intensify the urge to breathe in the much cleaner smoke straight from one of the minions of Death disguised as a long white stick with a filter on one end and the legal substitute for something dried and leafy filling in on the other end. I told my friend, “the next time that stick will send me a very teasing invitation, I might just give in.

My friend replied to me that the next time I will see a stick, with or without the teasing invitation, I just need to look back and say, “You are not as good as you think you are”.

Then incidentally, right on cue, I got this message through my mobile from a MD friend.

“Saw your post. Indeed, cigarette smoking is dangerous to your health.”

That simple message gave me a light mind yet a heavy heart to come up with a decision. For this, I will heed the doctor’s advice. I will not smoke anymore. Not even a puff. I replied to him with gratitude yet a tinge of loneliness as I firmly say goodbye to one of my addictions.

“I know. It is unhealthy not only for the lungs but as well as for the heart.”

I hope this will be the last that I have to do.