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Thursday, August 7, 2008

The Lyrics

The room was in the usual chaotic state. The muted yellow walls and the really bright lights were so uninspiring. However, the white screen was continuously filling up with letters then with words then eventually with lines burdened by heavy emotions.

I should be happy
That he is not taking you seriously
I should be happy
That you are just one of the many
I should be happy
That you aren’t exactly who he fancy

I should be happy
but I am not.


Then I paused. I went a little further elaborating the pain I was feeling inside. I continued explaining that

If that fatal day comes
I will cry as you cry
Bruise as you bruise
Bleed as you bleed

Line after line it went on. Streams of emotions converted to letters and words carefully woven together to bring justice to the feelings they represented.

Then I stopped.

I went over the piece to check for revisions. I read word for word, line per line delicately looking for ways to make it better. Unexpectedly, as I went on it felt like a gum slowly losing its zest with every bite. When I indulged further it left nothing more than a bad taste in the mouth. The entire piece became stale.

I added some letters
I changed some words
I rewrote some lines
I deleted some stanzas

All these efforts were useless. Every word served their purpose. Every line has proven their point. I realized that the lyrics needed no alterations at all. It’s just that the lyrics no longer validate my current emotions.

8 comments:

joelmcvie said...

Hehehe. Write in white heat, edit in cold blood. =)

BTW, linked your blog to mine. =)

wanderingcommuter said...

ang lungkot naman nito. but nice choice and play of words!!! keep it up!

boying said...

minsan, talagang kulang at nakakabitin ang mga naimbentong mga salita, kahit anong lenggwahe man ito, para ibulalas ang mga nakapaloob sa damdamin ng mga tao...

joaqui_miguel said...

@joelmcvie: Thanks a bunch! I appreciate it. :)

@wanderingcommuter: Thank you. :) I will.

@boying: True. Thankfully, we have other ways of showing/releasing our emotions. :)

Chyng said...

@boying,
parang you just have to be there / experience and feel everything so you may understand fully too..

@joaqui,
you made me feel questioning again.. wise lines again!

joaqui_miguel said...

@chyng: Thanks. :)

dabo said...

i tried so hard
and not so far
in the end
nothing really matters..

-linkin park

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RONeiluke, RN said...

thanks alot...i hope so too...