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Friday, March 27, 2009

Maybe Not Just Yet

I woke up this morning with a message from my best friend on top of all the messages in my inbox. She was asking if she can forward my resume for a job posting in the company that she is working for. I replied positively yet with a clear void of excitement. It hit me that this would possibly be my nth time to be interviewed for that company. Do I want another one? How many rejections do I need to convince myself that it’s not really meant to be.

After a few more exchange of messages with my best friend, I can’t help but scream out loud in the confines of my dark cold room,

how many punches do you need to take before you throw the white flag.

Hearing how crisp and piercing each word lingered in the room, I realized I may not only be talking about the job or the company anymore.

There are times when you give it more and there are times that you just give up. And now, I may be on the verge of giving up, not only for that seemingly elusive placement in that company but also for that, yeah, that-thing-that-must-not-be-named.



After writing this, I heard my phone ring and saw a very familiar name flashing on the screen of my phone. Before answering the phone I thought to myself, “... maybe not just yet.”

23 comments:

lucas said...

don't give up...not just yet. :)

napaisip tuloy ako kung ano yung that-thing-that-must-not-be -named. ahehe!

paece out!

Joaqui said...

Well, yeah. Not just yet...not just yet. :)

John Vincent aka Jay Vee said...

Always think positive and don't give up... ;)

Theo Martin said...

Totoo yan. nangyayari na nagmemerge yung mga frustrations natin at nailalagay sa ibang bagay...

Joaqui said...

I started the year not really positively but I managed to shake it off. I started the month with a positive outlook but then at times I falter. Oh well, the month is ending, I will start anew next week. hehehe

Joaqui said...

@jayvee: The last comment was a reply to your comment. hehehe

@theo martin: Then we just have to really stop, step back a little and put things in proper perspective. :)

Tristan Tan said...

I give up when I already feel that the other person is not worth fighting for anymore.

Rain Darwin said...

It’s not your loss, it’s theirs.

As the usual saying goes.. Next company please....

Chyng said...

Ang matalinong tao alam kung kelan susuko. Yun lang!

Joaqui said...

@tristan: Well, the person is really arbitrary most of the time. It's the whole process that frustrates me and makes me want to give up. I can't seem to master the whole process. Each and everytime, I receive an unexpected blow.

@rain darwin: Yup. Next please... hehehe

@chyng: Hmmm... I gotta figure out if I am smart enough. hehehe

Turismoboi said...

naku i know the feeling believe me

i alwats ask myself why din

Joaqui said...

@turismoboi: Should we form a group as a support? Some kind of Alcoholic Anonymous? hehehe

Lukayo said...

Sometimes we just have to realize that no matter how bad we want something, that something is really for someone else.

No worries, may nakalaan din para sa 'yo.

I can relate to your experience... I knew that third time's a charm but because of the recession... they decided to postpone getting me.

C'est la vie.

Joaqui said...

What I realized actually was maybe deep inside I really did not want it that's why I did not get it. (The Secret) hehehe

Pao Pielago said...

there is nothing wrong with giving up. just shrug the bad experience and move on to another. :)

thanks for dropping by my blog pala. i added you to my blogroll. :)

Joaqui said...

@pao: Thanks! :)

Herbs D. said...

giving you all the support. maybe its not the right time yet. you think.

*HUGS*

Joaqui said...

@herbs d.: Thanks! Maybe not yet. I'll think it over this coming holy week. I guess, I need some personal reflection. Thanks for the hug. :)

Herbs D. said...

@Joaque- yer welcome. i'm a big fan of hugs :)

wanderingcommuter said...

napapansin ko na ang trending from emoness to career ang shifting ng mga tao, lately.

Joaqui said...

@herbs d.: :)

@peachy: talaga lang ha. hehehe

KRIS JASPER said...

never raise the white flag up yet. I have hopes for you wax!

Joaqui said...

@kris jasper: Thanks! :)