My Addictive Affair

I promised not to get near you ever again
I promised not to think of you again even
I promised to fulfill my promises to myself
Yet, once again, failure I accept

Standing before you now, weak and resigned
All of my pride painfully I unbind
Just so I will be able to touch you again
Just to take you in me once again

One touch is all it takes and you know I am yours
You will be welcomed and cradled in my hands of course
As our lips reunite I know I have reached a point of no return
I want you here and now, and I am not concerned

As always you are warm in my hands
And that familiar feel on my lips, I cannot resist
You know you will get burned if we go on
Yet you are so brave to insist to go on

When I first met you, you knew about my intentions
You told me yours and I took you with no inhibitions
We are doing this as two consenting adults that is the truth
The two of us together is a combination that is no good

You know that one flicker is all we need
I will take you in me and I know you will like it
Then I blow you for all your worth
A cycle we continue until we are spent both

When it is time you reach your end
I have to let go of you before I too get burned
I promise to be gentle in tossing you away
You have to go now, no more reason for you to stay

After all that is said and done
Nothing can be undone
I will say this loudly and repetitively just like a chant

“For the love of my lips and my lungs,
I am quitting smoking this instant!”

Settling In

Last week, I moved in to the place I now call home here in Manila. It is a 3-bedroom condominium unit that I share with a few friends from my hometown. I occupy one of the 2 smaller rooms with a room mate. I don't mind sharing a place with these people because I have known most of them from way back. Most of them were part of the Puerto Galera trip recently that was super fun to say the least.

The place is settling more than anything else. I have taken out most of my stuff from the suitcase for the first time in a little over a year. Something I have never done in the place where I stayed prior here. Before, my clothes remained in the suitcase and laundry bags and I learned to live that way. That's why it was a pretty weird feeling to set aside the suitcase for a while. It still encases some of my stuff that I don't use anymore that I am planning to bring home when in August. I cannot believe how many clothes I have that I don't actually use. They are just excess baggage that I don't really need. So for now, they remain inside the confines of the suitcase and set aside for good.

Not just for clothes but for the stuff in our life that we do not need, we must learn to carefully choose, encase them and set them aside. If we carry these excess baggage, they will only bring us down. Remember, it will be hard to rise when heavily burdened by things you do not need.

I am Homeless.

I never ever in my entire whole life imagined that there will come a time that I will be "homeless". It is something I would imagine for those who I see on the streets of Manila, wearing gray shirt when originally it should be white, with hair equivalent to a nightmare to a hair stylist and the look of a total mess. I know I am far from that but unfortunately, it seems like I am one of them... homeless.

I just got booted out from where I live. I was supposed to be with a group of friends, however that planned did not work out for some reason God can explain. I then decided to move to this studio type apartment in QC that's so calling out my name when I first saw it. However with God's grace, it did not push through. Thus, now me being homeless.

I know this won't be for long because I declare and conspire with the forces that rule this world that soon I will live in a very nice place and I will look back at this moment in my life with a smile on my face and an understanding why it had to happen.

Staying Calm Amidst Plans Going Haywire

It's amusing more than irritating how at times when everything seems to fall into place, the Big J has His ways to shake things up just to remind you your place in this world. Just when you thought that your plans are running on its rightful path, suddenly you will reach a point when it's not so clear anymore because of an unexpected hurdle placed in front of you. For most people, the easier route is to turn back and just curse the heavens above. It would make sense to stay awake all night and question why such misfortune could happen when you have been nothing but good all year. But for me, I realized, I may have been too serious all the while and He thinks that I just need a little laugh as I go along my way.

More Blogs to Come

Today, I have decided to take this "blogging thing" a little more seriously.

As part of my self-improvement plan this year, I will "try" to further develop my writing skills, which was in hiatus mode for quite some time now.

So, I summon all muses to visit me regularly for me to keep up with this.

Monday is a Holiday!

It's a holiday yet in a while I will be preparing to leave the house then eventually go to work. Well, that's the life I chose for me here in the metro --- to work in an industry that needs me even on a legal holiday. The rest of my colleagues will not be going while I have to go and do reports. Whoa! Nice, right?

I am not complaining. Like I said in my previous posting, I enjoy my job. It's just that it's one of those days when you just want to lie down and play lazy all day long. Soon, I will not be going to work when it's a holiday. That day is coming and I can't wait.

Until then, let me get ready and head off to work so that I can finish my reports early.

Start of the last Month of the Quarter

It's the last month of the first quarter. The usual month for graduations. This year, the month for the holy week. The month for concerts of international artists/bands like, Neyo, Maroon 5, Incubus, Earth, Wind and Fire to name a few. The month where I will celebrate my first anniversary with my current employer. It's the month for reunions with long time friends that I haven't seen for a while. It's the month for some new stuff. It's the month for the possibility of moving to a new palce and living on my own. It's the month for vacation to Puerto Galera or Boracay or anywhere that I have not been to yet. It's a month of hopeful possibilities. A month of wishful thinking for the best in everything. A month for anticipated stress. The month for a bunch of firsts , *fingers crossed*. A month to write, to dance and to smile. A month to March. :)

Kung Hei Fat Choi

Not long ago, our chinky-eyed friends celebrated the coming of the new year, the year of the Rat. I'm not chinese, though I can look like one when I laugh so hard, but I will join them in starting a new year. I welcome the coming year of wealth and happiness in my life. In the name of the forces that be, I declare that this year I will be rich and happy.

I'm sure most of you will think that it is very idealistic to aspire for such. Well, I am young and I'm supposed to be idealistic. But really it is not too idealistic. It can happen. I believe that being rich at the same time happy can happen. If I set my mind to it and conspire the world to be in sync with my plans it will happen. In fact, I maybe on my way there. *fingers crossed ;)